Aah!

Yet another delay in updation here. But anyhow, that's not something which is worth mentioning anymore. And thats bcoz it has been a norm for quite some time now.

Anyhow, the days have been full of, I would say, happenings. Or I think I should call it incidents, rather than happenings.

Ever since I came back from PD sessions in Bangalore, I have been keeping low in terms of being decisive. And then, when it comes to keeping alive and kicking for all to see, it takes a toll every time you try for it. Hence it has been a cause of worry for a few days now, and the confusions have been aggravating just like anything. On the top of it all, the so called "fun-factor" has really brought down all the spirits.

Things have got.......awkward!

Don't know whether they are awkward or not, but its just that communication and perception differ a lot when it comes to different personalities. Hoping for the things to get a bit relaxed soon enuf, or else I'll have to work on things I can keep running. And the only thing is, I don't know what I can help to run!

Personality!

Now then, a long time yet again since I updated it last. Here I go again.

Things are similar to what they have been for a few months now. Startign SAP training, and then, a few PD sessions as well. And I guess I can mak a mark in them as well. Its just that I am not too sure whether I'll be able to sustain in this for a long time to come.

Now that I am in Bangalore for a week, I will get a chance to look at my own capabilities with a bird's eye view, and will be able to see whether I can do it or not. Just a week I guess.

And things are going to be a bit different from the enxt week on, I am sure. I will need to make sure I make decisions in the best interests of a few people.

If I may predict my own horoscope for the coming week, it would say that I am going to be in sheer confusion, and would be indulged in lots of heated and physco exchanges. I will have to look into money matters in a different way, and will have to make a choice soon.

Let's see which choice it is!

The Leela

Just came back an hour back from 'The Leela'. Twas nothing like Bangalore Leela. Infact, this was not even comparable to Taj Land's End or Muthoot Plaza! Though it had the best location possible - that on the top of a cliff, alongside the sea beach, but the ambience was just not meant to be like a 7 star. How can a 7 star be cheaper than a 5 star !

Well, the gathering was good. Had fun with the food, and the talks. Though sitting along side the pool, it made me feel nostalgic, and a rush of adrenaline went thru my spine! I wanted to swim, and reach my home, both at the same time. Not that I cud swim from here to Delhi, but anyhow!

And the client presentation tomorrow morning means I will need to have a night out tonight. Not that I would have cared much, but its good that we did not have a booze party tonight. Though I would have loved to blabber about a lot of issues if this presentation would not have been there tomorrow, there won't be much point in doing that tomorrow as it would be irrelevant tomorrow.

I just want to go away now. Maybe Bangalore, maybe Mumbai/Pune, or maybe Delhi. Wherever! I don't care. I am fed up of devising ways of killing my valuable time which I can use for constructive work as well. This new year shud see me at a place different than this.

For the best.

Taken for granted

I feel I am being taken for granted sometimes, when I don't wish to. That's what creates problems. Though I try to figure out the best way possible, but something or the other comes in the way to make me do rash things.

On other grounds, I am deciding on the training now, and looking out what could be the options. I know there are not many options, but who knows what comes out from where. Hopefully, I shud be in Delhi by the end of this month. This will work out from there, I am sure.

Been talking to quite a few people these days; and taking up lots of their tasks, but I know I can't do with due justice. Will try my level best though.

Fee-mails!

Wishlist

Now then, I saw Orkut asking me for my holiday wishlist.

I started wondering what it could be, but then I realised that there could be "N" number of things I would want, if given a chance.

To start with, what about putting all the things in place for the firm. Follow it up with a party with all the friends (this has been long overdue). Then getting an opportunity to meet all my friends once again, be it together or one by one. Then, I would love to attend all the functions coming up in next few months. The list would grow endless, but its just that I would be contended with this much as well.

Bas itna sa khwaab hai!

VC

Spent last 10 days in Blr, meeting people. Strand leaves me stranded, and don't know how things proceed from here.

An update on what happened in Blr: Met quite a few people. Dido, VRS, Sardar (Obviously). Then Tarun, Nidhi, Deepika. Met Kalyan and Brinda also for once. Cudn't catch up with Sinha as we both were at wrong places at the right time.

Sardar's Genpact party was gud. So were its after-effects. Wud have liked to follow things in the way I wanted. Even Sardar said that I shud have gone ahead with the war, but somehow didn't feel like going ahead, for the sake of ol' times. Hardly that it matters, but still!

Gotta stay here in Tvdm for a few days, and then to go ahead - can't say where.

Normalcy

Though Kalyan has left; though I know I will be leaving in a few days as well; I know things will be better soon. Things are at status quo, but its becoming easier these days - maybe with the help of tiny little helpings here and there.

A few days back, had a tete-e-tete with Apoorva thru DP. Yet another character. Has a few things in her mind which she has no idea about. Level headed though.

Had these not-so-usual talks with DP. And something on the same grounds with regards to uniqueness with CD as well. Though there was a little difference of opinion with CD, but thats normal.

And yes, how to forget Srushita and Meera. Does it happen with everyone? So many cold calls? Nice people anyhow!

Aasheesh is also getting confused, and something needs to be worked out soon. So is the case with Swap. Now that the bonus is done, will start looking for something for him as well.
Twas very nice to talking to Micky yesternite. He called at the right moment: when I was missing him the most! Thats my bro! Knows when to do what.

I'll be going to Bangalore soon; maybe tomorrow. Have quite a few things to do there. Lets see how the coming week fares for me.

Where?

I don't know where I will be, what I will be doing, why I will be doing whatever I would be doing, a few weeks down the line! The bleak picture shows that I will be in Bangalore next week, gearing up for a few meetings and pitches. Third week of December might see me back in Trivandrum to pack up and go back to Delhi. It might as well see me packing up and shifting to Bangalore. Anything could happen in days to come. A very ambiguous time indeed. Period.

The week that was:

Well, as usual, am late on update.

All these issues came up at work. Went for bangalore for these presentations. Came back and other issues. Very uncertain times coming up. But hopefully everything will get in place in a month's time. Sometimes I wonder - Isn't it possible to fast-forward the life by a month or so: so that everything falls back in order, and we don't have to worry about it at all.

I now know what start-ups mean; It isn't as rosy as it seems - It has much more in store!

All the chat sessions have come down - don't know why. Will know in a few days whether its for gud or bad.